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do i like to travel?

Submitted by threemoons on Tue, 2009-08-18 18:06

Today has been another hard day in a seriese of hard days. Since my lovely friend died and my partner left nothing has seemed to matter. i have been on a bit of downward spiral of self destruction.

today has been hard though for good reasons i think? i have made progress. i have done all the neccecery things that needed doing. Appointments, banking, bills etc and feel like perhaps it is time to start looking towards the future in a new way.

i have feelings like this before and often before a period of intense creativity. my worry is that like all the other times i will work and work and not actulally get anywhere. i know that failiure is just experience and it is about the journey and all those other cliches, but i feel at the age of 30 i should really be 'getting' somewhere by now. Problem is i dont know where it is want be.

its not like you can just pick up a travel brouchure and say 'yes thats it, perfect, i will take a cruise around senior management' or an 'all inclusive in freelance opportunities'

there is no brochure and even if there was i think i have probably had at least a week in most continants by now and am still no wiser for the experience.

Perhaps the problem is... i like to travel!

so the question is... how do i fit all the things that i love into a 'tailor made trip'?

Comments

inner compass

Submitted by Shyam on Tue, 2009-08-18 23:10.

I heard some wise words recently that may or may not be helpful. I will attempt to paraphrase. You know you are moving in the right direction when you feel good (about life, job, relationship, etc). Conversely you know you are moving in the wrong direction when you feel bad. I'm not talking about whimsical feelings, I'm talking about gut feelings.

I recently turned down a job that I just didn't feel good about even though I needed a job and it was the only one available. But I decided to go with my gut and turn it down. Part of me felt like an idealistic fool for doing so but the other part felt liberated and happy for taking a stand, and it was that feeling I was following. The happy twist is the same day I decided to turn down the job, I got a call out of the blue for another job that I was much happier to take.

My point is that maybe there were parts about all your "travels" that you like, but there were other parts that you didn't, so in the end you felt neutral about them and unsure what direction to follow. But maybe if you look at the common thread between all those parts you liked then you would discover what you really love to do. That could be how to find your "tailor made trip".

I think Joseph Campbell says it best. "Follow Your Bliss". I believe that is our inner compass for the trip of our dreams.

Shyam
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